how many times can I kill myself
until I am dense with the guilt that I deserve
should you save yourself the mindless repetition
of throwing your head against concrete
Within all the remnants, I still cannot find it in me to tolerate myself
but it will at least make me hate myself a little more
and rearrange atoms into foreign sequences
surreal illusions of matter, atoms one by one
how we manage to trace the silhouettes of our own shadows but fail to recognize them at all
what will be left of me, what all will remain
as I become more unaware of my existence with every wasted moment
obscure reflection, a face unfamiliar obscure reflection, a face unknown
surreal illusions of matter, atoms one by one
credits
from Mouthing,
released August 25, 2020
Mai - Vocals
Ryan - Guitar/Drums/Noise
Bradley - Bass
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